If anyone knows me, they may realize how discontent I get. This always helps me strive for better, but often makes me unable to enjoy the present. That is my current situation.
I am scheduled to go to Spain on Friday, and as much as I love Spain, I am already thinking of my next trip...the one where I go home to the people I miss for two weeks.
I keep forgetting that my trip back to the US is a return flight. After two weeks, I come back here to Italy to live the life I made for myself. And this slightly gives me pause. I am already past living in Italy. I am now onto what I must do for a Master's degree, what will I do after my Master's degree, will I be able to move away from home again. This time in the US, but will I.
My mind is not focused on the present, and it often makes me miserable. I dream of one day being able to play guitar, yet don't take the time to practice (my current excuse is that I do not have a guitar here in Italy.)
Why cannot I not just enjoy right now. As I went to breakfast with my roomie today, I tried to enjoy my cappuccino, and morning dessert, but really my mind is at least two years down the road, in a career that I have worked towards.
News flash to me: I am living in Italy! Instead of forgetting where I am, dreaming of being in America, or thinking past the finger hurting practice, I need to be present. Says Yogi Tea.
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